Sunday, May 29, 2016

To follow or lead, that is the question

Greetings All, Shardvixen here;
As I have watch youtube videos to get an idea on how I want my channel to go, I see a lot of negativity in comments, then one youtuber, Jacksepticeye does a vlog about editing and the negativity he sees.  Where is it all coming from?
I have had a lot of behavior and psychology classes.  Does this make me smarter than the average 5th grader, no but it does educate me in trying to understand human behavior.  Why do some people follow haters, why are some people haters?  I have seen it all my life.  I was bullied as a child.  I basically had to learn to create a very strong wall around my feelings to keep myself safe.  When adulthood came, I though "hooray, no one will bully me."
As you can image, I lost my innocent of being an adult.  I was very naive and really believe people grew up and realized what they had done as a child was wrong.  Bullies come in all ages.
By definition a bully is some one who does harm to another for power.  This power can come from the concept of getting something from the person using violence of one form or another.
Some people, such as myself, are immune to nasty, hurtful words.  Being called a cry baby when I was young didn't really bother me while on the other hand being pushed, tripped and hit made me cry because it hurt.  But really hurt was being treated like a friend one minute and like trash the next.  And that still bothers me now, though I don't let it effect me.
The question I always wonder about, is the why.  Why are some people mean?  Do they know they are being mean because that is what is the difference between a bully and a plain asshole.  Asshole sometimes know they are being mean but they don't care but some assholes don't, words just come out wrong.
There are all kinds of different bullies.  The only thing they all have in common, is they hurt others to gain power.  It is like they have a superpower.  The power of being mean, the power to get others to be mean, and the power to make the victims be mean to themselves. Some bullies are both victims and attackers.  They are dislike so much they learn to use violence as a way to have standing in the world.
On youtube, I see a lot of video makers/creators who influence others and then those others go out and hurt others.  Is this bulling, yes it is in a way.  If you as a creator don't understand, even though you can't make some one hurt someone else, you can suggest it in a way that seems like your followers will want to make you happy or safe and therefore will attack those you dislike.
Is this fair, no but it is the way we as human think.  We all like to belong and not be the one stuck on the outside of the circles of humans we like.  Youtube allows for people to join in a common cause without someone saying "I don't like the way you are acting, so I don't want you to follow me".  Yes, I am sure a creator could get rid of a subscriber but that brings up a tough point as well.  If you got rid of all the subscribers one didn't like, would you have enough subscribers to even warrant a channel?
I don't make a good follower.  I can follow if I feel the cause is just but I won't be part of any group which causes harm to others.  I believe in sarcasm and parody but sometimes people will say they didn't mean to be mean when they really did but know if they hid behind art, they can continue to be mean.
Parody means : to copy the style of another but to do so in a way that is funny.  It doesn't mean in a way which is mean.  And sarcasm means: to mock or to do so to show contempt.  Some things need to be seen this way while others don't.  It is up to us as a group or culture or society to decide what needs to be done this way and what is acceptable humor wrapped up in sarcasm and parody.  Lately in the last 20 years as communities try to fight aggressive behaviors in schools, more and more aggressive humor is popping up in media.   Is it wrong to assault a person with words such as fat, stupid, retard, bitch, bastard, slut, geek?  Is it wrong to assault a person and laugh to show it was just a joke.  I think for me it has to be in the appropriate atmosphere and I get to decide where that is for me.  
Do people have to state when they are hurt before it is decide to be wrong to use such humor? If we acknowledge such areas like a stage to be an ok place to create such humor are we adding to the hurt it can cause?
I have found some really bad humor to be funny, black as sin humor which if taken out of the realm of humor, would be seen as a direct insult and assault of certain types of people.  I have seen fat people make fun of being fat and sometimes it is funny and sometimes it isn't.  If we follow the humor and encourage it, what does that say of us as a race of beings?
As leaders should we forgo such humor even though it has existed probably since the beginning of sharing humor.  Two primitive beings laugh over another one falling in shit or saying or doing something stupid.
I agree with Jacksepticeye;  I don't want people being mean to each other in my comments.  But they can be mean to me.  I have seen websites, Facebook pages and other social media where horrible things are said about other types of people.  In the descriptions it always states " This was a parody of another."  I will not mind someone making a parody of me but I do mind people hiding behind an art form to be mean to me or others.  I am most likely seen by others as a loser, but I don't care.  I will not lead people to be hurtful and I will not follow those who are being hurtful.  I will choose what I want to share and what I see as funny as long as I don't think it will hurt another.  
I understand this gives some haters power to say they are hurt by what I write, record or share and all I can do is acknowledge their pain real or not.  It is not up to me to decide if they were hurt just to understand they may have been.
We all need to think about how we want to treat each other, especially if beings from out of space come and decide to eat us, we would all have to band together.  Some of us may not want to work with the asshole who thought it was funny to laugh at us.
I welcome all of your thoughts on this site and on my youtube channel.  We can open a discussion of this topic any time.  I will catch you all on the flipside and I am outta here!

Friday, May 20, 2016

A Mentor Group is Needed!

Greetings All, Shardvixen here;
I doubt anyone is reading this blog but few are watching my video as well so I am not going to quit.  What I need is a mentor and one I don't have to pay for.  All of the world wants to help you for a price.  I dislike this concept.  I am not against people wanting to make a buck but I am against education being held back just so someone can make money.  We should share knowledge.  I have found people will pay for the How To if the knowledge of how to is shared.
I am sure I am not rich because I share knowledge.  This is why I loved Youtube because the knowledge is shared.  But one of the things which is needed is either a group or a page or a site where new channel starter can ask questions.  There are a lot of videos which show you how but what about the exception to the rule.
For example: It has been suggestion that I play newer games.  I can't afford newer games so I need to know how to use what I have to become successful.  It has been said to be creative and do you own things but all the suggestions given to me are do this and do that but not how to be me and do what I can.
So I may have to make sure as I go along, I help others with what I have learn.  I will be a mentor for free.
On that note, I have also notice that none of the males who are over a million subs play with female gamers ( yeah I know how that read).  What is up with that?  I don't want to do a channel where I have to do make up.  I will do a channel where I do crafts because that is who I am or have fun with kids because that is who I am but I am also a video gamer so I would love to play with others as well.
If any of you are reading this blog please answer me on those things I ask.
The other point I need to get off my chest is , why am I getting all the "watch me naked" followers on Twitter.  Where are the real people.  In fact where are all the normal, everyday don't have a channel people in the world?  Where are the subscribers who just want to watch a video?  Who can answer these questions for me?  I will keep looking for the answers and a mentor.
See you all on the flipside! I am outta here.

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Thursday, May 5, 2016

Brains........Lets talk about Brains

Greetings All, Shardvixen here;
Lets talk about brains.  They are really interesting organs.  They drive everything we do.  If you think about all the things they do without us thinking about it, it is easy to understand why AI would be a bit difficult to create.  You can build really fast processors which are able to take a command and add lots of possibilities to the commands but in the end you still only have a really fast processors which isn't as fast as our brains.
Brains are so complex, there is still a lot we don't understand about them.  There are studies about how drugs effect the brain which never got published because they ended up showing that some drugs stimulated parts of the brain to create higher processing skills while depleting skills for survival like understand social body language.  The studies were not publish because it was feared some people would do drugs while pregnant on purpose to create very smart babies.  Yes there are still people out there who experiment on their own children.
Here is a quick lesson on how complex and effective our brains are.  Every person born has a unique brain which get programmed by the world around it.  Every brain sees, hears, tastes, feels and translates the world around them differently, unless it is a twin brain.  Twins tend to see the world more alike than the rest of world around them.
Brains are programmed to relate to others with shared information.  I see green differently than all the other people in the world, but it is agreed upon that shade of color, blue mixed with yellow, is called green.  I see trees differently but can use an universal stick drawing to say tree and others will usually understand.  In most places, the hand pretending to hold something to the mouth, means eating or food.
When a population of brains agree upon any given thing, that can be called a society and about 75% of any given population is the average, the norm of agreed things.  This is how new words get into our thoughts.  We share a concept and give it a name and then we all agree to use that name because at least 75% of our given population agrees to it.
There are societies within societies or if you like cultures withing cultures.  Each of these cultures of brains has rules which tell others brains what things are in their culture.  Again the words and meanings must be agreed upon.
For me, I just like the idea that my brain is different and see the world in its own unique style. How I interpret things is my own private language and only when I have to share it with others do I use the society words for meaning.
Religion has a way of breaking down society's words for things.  It moves into the realm of private understanding and is hard to share.  Many religious cultures have their own words of meaning that do not necessarily match the words of outside cultures from the starting point which is why there is so much misunderstanding.
Our brains have no nerves, the brains can not tell the difference from pain of the body to pain of the soul.  To the brains it is all the same.  Which is why babies can die from neglect of love even if they are fed food and why people will hurt themselves when others treat them hurtfully, attack their self worth, self understanding and self awareness.
We need to learn to treat our brains and other brains well.  To create growth rather than stagnation. To encourage the concept of Dadaism rather expertism.  We do not need to prove we are experts in our lives.  We do not need to prove what we are doing and what we will do has worth because it all has worth.  Our brains are full of worth, eager to change and grow and give new meanings to what we create and destroy during out life times.
A toast to out brains.