Greetings All; Shardvixen Here,
Since I can remember creating is something I have loved to do. This is how I see my Youtube channels, a new kind of creation. I have some strange thoughts about my creations. I don't know if you can call them "ART" as society thinks of art. Society as a whole sees art in an established, formatted way even when saying they don't. It is our peers in all of the generations who determine what is art/craft and what is "ART".. I do craft.
I can draw a copy of anything I see but I can't reproduce an object from my head in an adult version. Everything is like it was drawn by an in-matured brain. It isn't that it is child like but rather that the techniques they have tried to drill in my head are just at the beginning level. Once upon a time, that depressed me in a way where I stopped drawing. In my 20s I completely stopped drawing because an art teacher told me I was wasting my time, I was a no talented person and I believed her.
In some ways I can be very naive even now (though I try very hard not to be). I was raised to believe those with education, talent and position were the ones we listen to. That is how one functions in a society. As a cog in the wheel to keep things going, I had to accept what those who were better than me decided. This group was were teachers, doctors, judges, police, military, parents and other types of educated, talented and authoritative people resided. Not me, I didn't know anything about anything when I started out in the world. All I really knew was, people could lie to you but those in power shouldn't. I thought I had a fool proof way of knowing who was lying to me and who wasn't. What I didn't take in to account was if a person believed what they were saying to me, then they weren't laying. That art teacher so long ago believed I was some one with no talent.
But I do have talent. I can draw, I can create things from junk. I can paint, work in clay, make a costume. I can create a movie in my head, music video and shots. I can change behaviors and modify others. The one thing I have the most talent in now, I can't do any more or at least at this time. So I create in other ways. I use my channels to create things and share things. I can not say if others believe I have talent or not, but it doesn't really matter. What matters is WHAT I BELIEVE! And I believe is I have talent. People equal talent to money but I don't.
Sometime what I create is a mess. But one can learn so much from a mess. I have learn that I made a mistake, or something wasn't working right or there is no modification to what I was trying to do. Then I will try again or I don't. Sometimes I get frustrated because what I am trying to do, just isn't working the way it is suppose to. And then I walk away and decide if it is important enough to continue.
My youtube channels have made me think that way every once in a while. But then I get excited thinking about another story I can tell, or playing a game and sharing or creating a craft and showing it off. It keeps me alive and I love it. Creating is what keeps me sane most of the time, even when I am so depressed I think about not being here. I then think about a story I have been working on or one waiting for me to finish it.
I love writing because I love exploring ways to create a great story. I think a great story is one which keeps you thinking about it long after you have finish it It can make you crave for more or just have you wonder if you would have written it that way. It might make you wonder what the characters are doing after the story ends or maybe you didn't like how the characters acted and you wonder how they would have been if just one thing had been different.
I love creating worlds different and the same as ours. Then comes the creation of characters and how you begin to love or hate them. How they exist in their worlds and with others beings. What is their end story within the story you are writing. Story writing is why I like video games so much. Even though some one else has created the world, you have a chance to be part of it and see how it all plays out. In a way it is kind of like life, with us waiting to see how it all plays out.
I am waiting to see how my channels all play out as I work on them. I work on my crafts (making a Boba Fett helmet for Booby and a Snivy costume for BobbyJoe as well as my own costume for vlogs). I create stories for my puppets and for books and the vlog. I work on the writing of my stories. I love to read my stories so I know they are great. Some day they will be done in another format to be shared on Youtube. I work on my grandson's blanket as well as cloths for me. Creating is why I live. It isn't my job, it is my air and water for this existence.
I am outta here, catch you on the flip side and Peace to you all!
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